I've Been Thinking...
At the start of this year, I found myself going on an organization tear quite unlike any I’d been on before. I felt an urge to clean up and clear out. To streamline and simplify. To bring order to all areas of my life.
The feeling came from a place deep within, and it felt different than it ever had before. (Yes, I’ve organized before.) When I told a friend, she said, “Maria, that makes perfect sense. You are trying to make room and space in your life for something new.”
“Aha!” I said to myself. “That’s it. That feels right.”
It felt like my desire was about something bigger than simply organizing. It felt like it was about getting grounded and balanced. Clearing out my physical space allows me to pave way for clearing out my emotional space. It helps me see what’s right in front of me so that I can ask myself, “What do I really want in my life? What can I remove, so that I can I make room?"
At the beginning of every year, there’s an energy that’s palpable where you feel such huge promise for newness, in every way. Yes, we all get to start again! YAY. Yoga, Pilates, promises to yourself to change your diet, let go of the old habits that messed you up the year before, start a prayer and meditation practice and quit sugar/alcohol/(fill in blank) for real this time, take some interesting classes you’ve always wanted to do. Everyone is raring to go. Success by design is inherent just in the words “new year”. The failures of yesterday can be erased on Jan 1. That is a big fat promise.
But not so fast. These are all worthy intentions but what if your old self, the one you’re trying to change is not willing to do the list in your hand. What if your old self is so invested in your identity of feeling shitty, lonely, hard done by, angry, etc. that it thinks your new ideas are just phooey and is determined to prove it to you?
Each year brings new lessons and opportunities for growth.
Each year you are given is a precious gift from the universe.
Each year is a new canvas that you get to create, a work of art that is your life.
It’s not the change of year that makes the difference but who you are being and what you bring to it.
So what will you bring to 2020 that was different than the year before.
And who will you be differently this year?